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Things I Learned Today

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 03:14:44 GMT

It's always exciting to learn something new about yourself. Today, I had a job interview and I was amazed at the amount of growth I've experienced. Man, it was just beautiful and I was SO gracious and thankful for being open enough to see ME. 1. I want to RUN something in 5 years. 2. I need to stop trying to be AVERAGE. 3. Network and use it.

Success Principles

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 17:54:57 GMT

Attitude + Ambition + Assertiveness + Action = Success Successful people write down what they want, look at it several times a day to stay focused and they make things happen. I have the hardest time letting my emotions distract me from my goals. Working super hard on my attitude and review affirmations that are heart and soul felt, still putting together a book of goals, am determined NOT to take no for an answer if it is something that I want AND need for my journey, and making some ripples in the otherwise still water. As air, I should always be moving EVEN if its unseen and unfelt. That is one thing that I have to work on as well because being lazy is NOT my nature. I have been reading my book of the year and I know that it will help me cut away the fat in life and get to the meat of it all. I am destined to be successful because I already am. Blessed.

Amazing

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 21:49:15 GMT

I havent blogged all year thus far.

The Tipping Point

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 17:40:14 GMT

When word came out that the Regional Offices would be closed included the one I worked in, the consultant asked if I would be interested in coming in and teaching her how to check her email along with writing a memo here and there for a nominal hourly fee. I agreed and went home and wrote out this curriculm for teaching senior citizens how to use the computer. Fast forward to today, I have taught her only 3 lessons because she always claims to be too busy for a lesson and just swamped with work. So I always end up writing emails, memos, letters, etc. Plus, a couple weeks ago I was offered a part time position as her Administrative Assistant which I declined (speak on later in the blog.) I'm the type to show my discontent on my face by just becoming less and less enthused in my environment. I feel like I've been bamboozled and the main reason for my agreeing "to teach" has been pushed to the side so I am "to assist" instead. Which I am at this point plus she makes a huge deal about me coming in and not forgetting about them. She has been saying this since Columbus day when I didn't come into the office cause I felt like sitting on my ass just like the rest of the world, I feel that this is a ploy to make me feel bad and it works. I somehow always lie about why I can't come in instead of just saying I don't want to come in. Its like I'm in so deep I feel obligated to give reasons which I should be feeling this way at all BUT its a part of me. However, I don't want to go into a new year with this feeling within me. Friday, I set myself up to speak with her about me not coming into the office anymore as I really need to focus on doing more to get my shit together. BUT it didn't happen she instead called me cavalier based on my feelings about payments when in turn this should have been the time to just let it out BUT I have a fear that I will say something that will be very tactless as I have been charged with that offense. She came into the office several times but it just never felt right to speak on it at the time but I know now that it will never be the right time until I MAKE it that. I was talking to a co-worker who was also effected by the closing of the office and she brought up the fact that 2 women in the office include the one I work for know the damn world yet neither one has put themselves out there to help anyone find other full time work with benefits. Yes, we are ALL still unemployed I think all by choice though. I have been sending out my resume and I haven't even been invited in for a interview. I told her that I recognized that and that I felt myself losing respect for them especially since 1 would rather me lower my skill set to be her Assistant which would have put me back on the payroll of the same Org that laid me off as a Director yet they got money to hire me as Support staff. Since that offer, my heart hasn't been in it plus when she added to the feeling by calling me when I was in Florida to find out when I would be returning. I feel that I collect an unemployment check thus my time is MINE regardless if you are paying me. I feel that she thinks I should be happy she is paying me because that is always the precursor for any offer, "I don't know your money situation...." well those who know me knows that MONEY aint a thing and I've always been blessed to have enough to do what needs to be done. The money I get from her literally is like play money and groceries which I am willing for my state of mind and my FREEDOM to let go. I just don't know how to say it. I always feel like I'm pushed in a corner when I really should just speak up for myself as one of my major goals is to Become what I Believe. I'm supposed to call her and let her know if I'm coming in next week and my ass sat there and made up a lie about going out of town instead of saying naw, I'm not coming in. She is older, very formal (forever correcting my grammar among other things) and can be cold and matter of fact. I'm not sure if I should lay it out when I call her but what if I get her voicemail, should I just say it there? Its all about what's proper at this point. I'm ready to move on and I NEED to be helping myself. I don't hold no loyalty to her or anyone based on where I am right now. Don't even bring up that Influential shit either...makes the blood boil over.

A bit about the Soul

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 06:10:49 GMT

Many often insist that their loved one is a soulmate, yet, there are different classifications of soulmates; each one having some unique spiritual dynamics, relational patterns. 1. Soul lovers - someone you love, and would do anything for, and someone who loves you, and would do anything for you. And in that love, nothing is required for either person, because everything is already given 2. Soul sister/brother - someone belonging in the same soul group as you and therefore having an unusually strong bond and likeness to you 3. Karmic soulmate - someone who has a special mission or influence on one's life 4. Companion soulmate – People with whom one has made a connection 5. Twin soulmates – Very close friends with whom one has strong bonds. 6. Twin flame soulmate – A popular romantic belief that there is only one true soulmate. 7. Scientific soulmate – (If) a relationship can be quantified, and scored according to an internal happiness scale. A scientific soulmate is the person with whom you are the absolute happiest. You would therefore be less happy with any other person in existence. 8. Balance partners and messengers – The people you meet along the way who help you create balance in your life. 9. Divine complement – A new colloquialism for a 'match made in heaven', a twin soul, who holds inborn potentials that match and complement one's own and who is linked eternally through a signature in the heart at the dimension of the spirit.